trust in yourself

hmmmm.....
i am not good at writing. but let me give a try.
ok let me write something that i had for this day.
got up early , i was expected to be in college by 8:30.
started at 7:45 from home. got into a rush bus( the one and only gayatrinagar xpress :D) and found a company in bus. she asked me to help her to reach her destination. u know i am altruistic [;)], so I readily agreed. naturally when u r with some1 and have to spend some time together u probe all kind of questions at the other person to know much about her and judge her. so, she started firing questions like "wat r u doing?" , "which college?" blah blah blah
finally got down at the stop and then she asked "so how did u secure a seat in this college?"
i said " we hav an entrance and hav to secure a rank."
then she asked me my rank.i replied "7000 "
she was shocked . she was like "how the hell did u get into this college with such a big number??"
it was very embarrassing [:|]. come on this is what u get for helping others???
people still judge u on ur eamcet performance??
fine we r never going to meet again, so it doesnt matter what she thinks about me and I was resolved to never again say my rank correctly .who cares whether we said truth or lies. no one is going to make an investigation and its not a crime and i wont land in a prison.
reached college on time but the people who want me to be there by 8:30 are missing. so i am the only fool who dont follow indian standard time. [X-(]
our college has got a beautiful sceneary. so you find many elderly people having a walk in the morning. there were few people who were doing yoga and got their pet dog with them.
it was a cute dalmatian. jus want to go and play with it. so i stepped in their direction. those people naturally observed me and my interest in the dog. after a while my friends joined me. curious to know wats going around their place they asked me some questions. i said we r having a competition. " so what r u doing here?"
" i am in my final year."
" good. what was your eamcet rank?"
dont want to get embarrassed this time.
i replied " 7000 sir."
crap wat did i do?
just a couple of minutes ago i was determined that I am never going to say it again.
for a split second i was blank.i was supposed to say a number which is 10 times better than my rank. but wat do i get from it?
ofcourse i am not going to meet them again.
but thats what i am. eamcet rank 7000.lets face the truth.
i know what i am.what are my abilities , strenghts and weakness. if i said some other number like 600 or 700 the other person may look at me with a bit of respect but i will loose self respect.
i would be a failure . it doesnt matter whether i lied to others or not but truthful to myself.
only when i trust myself, i can spread my wings and fly high.
let me leave questions for others.